If I'm not wrong, The Beatles sang a song which had this line 'dreams.. are my reality...' Is it really true that they'll be reality? Dreams can be rubbish. Pure nonsense. Yet, there are times when one dreams of the future. And you won't realise it till it happens right before you and feel it has happened before. Deja vu, some would say. Others say that dreams occur when your mind is in a total state of rest. And they also say that contents of the dreams are stuffs that you are constantly thinking about.

The latest dream I had, wasn't something that's constantly on my mind. I do think of it from time to time, but not all the time. I won't be disclosing the contents of that dream because it is all too personal to me. But questions pops up. Will it really happen that way? What'll be the the step I'll adopt to have a win-win situation? Will it really seem easy and I spare myself the trouble? What'll really happen in the distant future?

The day the people close at heart accepts it, nothing else in this world would matter to me.

I NEEEEEEED A NEW PHONEEEEEEEE!

Yes. I really do need one. It's getting from bad to worst. Having solved the old problem (notice the singular), I now have to deal with new problemS (it's in the plural now)!

My sms! It doesn't always gets sent out. Sometimes, it'll just stay 'hanged' in the sending page, if not, it'll sit in the outbox and automatically gets sent out some 20 minutes later.

My calendar. It's not functioning properly. All my important dates to remember, appointments, birthdays are all inside. And each time I need to refer, I can't! It's seriously damn frustrating. Neither can I rely on my memory power because.. I don't have a knack for remembering too many things.

Dang! *chants* I needa new phone.. I need a new phone... I need a new phone....

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I just had my FYP briefing. Need to get started lots of research this week for a submission of a report on Monday. So darn fast. And everything is gonna be easy for the next 3 months because all I have to do is... water the plants and wait for them to grow.

The extraction part would seem fun. We're gonna be the first few to handle a new equipment using a new method. Mr Phua is overly excited and I don't know why. Mr Phua seems like a fun chap to work with. Not sure about Dr Koh though...

Oh well.. It's time to get started on the literature review...

Well, I'm into one of my moods where a word just occurs to me and I happen to think about it. The deeper I delve into it, the more confused I get, wanting in search for an answer. Well, do tag if you'd like to comment about the issue.

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Decisions, decisions, decisions. Life is full of them. Right or wrong? To satisfy the majority or the minority? Would I be happy or would others be happy?

At times, when we make the right decisions, we never realise it till people come up to us and compliment us for it. At times, it goes un-noticed. Taken for granted. When we make the wrong decisions, the whole world faults you. Sometimes immediately, sometimes over a period of time. Sometimes even when the whole event/situations has ended so long ago.

A mentor once told me(yes, you know who you are when you're reading this): "You have to make a decision. You can't satisfy everyone." This brings a lot of thinking into it. Again, you decide if you should adhere to it or to go against it. Eventually, you'll wonder again if what you did was right or wrong.

Vicious cycle. Unreturnable. Facts of life.

Now that is only the deciding end. What about the receiving end?

When we receive a decision that benefits us, obviously we're satisfied. Perhaps be happy or remain emotionless. What about if we object to it? Do we see it from another perspective and try to understand the basis for that decision or strongly stick to the same spot and believe that one's personal decision or the other alternative is much better for the benefit of oneself but not the others?

More often, when we can't come to a decision at that point of time. We put it off. Once, it can be considered putting it off. Twice is procrastination. I'm sure all of us are guilty of it. At times we are aware of it but still go ahead but more often, we don't realise it till time has passed over a certain period of time. When we procrastinate, things never happen, things never get done. And it is rather difficult to reverse it because it embarks on the point of no return. It ends only when one decides to put a stop to it and get started on it.

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Earlier on, before blogging this post, I happened to have an array of choices. However, I decided to lay off thinking about them till next month where they would be of higher importance as compared to what I have now. Seems like the journey of procrastination is about to begin...

Exams are finally over and I've been working since Valentine's Day till Friday. Well, Saturday to be technically correct. Worked from 7 am-2 am. It's hell doing the sai-gang. But, for a weird reason, I love the hell at check-in. Though everyone is like totally against it. But last night after check-in and when I was back at the office, I pulled one of the ligaments of my left sole. Ended up limping. So, I stayed to do the vouchers for the next day while every able-bodied men, fat and skinny, and the 'hiong' girls, went to move 100 cartons of water. I was SAVED! So the water has been moved from one branch to another and the vouchers were done. It's 2 am.

We went down to The Balcony @ Heerens to celebrate Glenda's birthday. I didn't know I was underage in there. Guys had to be 21 to be allowed in. I didn't have an identity check and I was only told after I sat down inside(not by their staff, of course). We drank white wine and to be honest, I got a bit fearful of it thanks to the perth-plane incident and on top of that, I only had a slice of pizza in the office before I went over. So I didn't dare drink much. I was already so exhausted and the alcohol made me even more tired. There were points in time where I fell asleep when everyone was chatting excitedly and they were all laughing at me sleep. So, eventually we played 'Cai Hao Ma' just to finish the cake and what's left of the wine. I was lucky enough to guess most of the numbers so I ended up finishing most of the wine in my glass and the cake. I got so so tired that I realised the words were coming out of my mouth before they could register in my head.

So we went home. For me, to sleep but for the others, to take a quick shower before heading back to the office to do morning check-in. Honestly, if I felt wide awake after my shower, I would offer to go back to office. It's not really working for the money. That I'm sure. It's more than that. Happiness earned and achieved withouth monetary means. But alas, I was too exhausted. Anyone would be too if they worked the Afternoon shift and SuperFull shift the next. Well, I knocked out flat when I touched my bed.

Woke up at 4 to have lunch and I FINALLY CLEARED MY TABLE OF ITS MESS! But it's gonna pile up again soon after the new year. And this year, I finally helped out with the cooking preparation. No, it's not just the fanning of the charcoals like other years. But the cooking portion too. I cut the abalone, I served soup, and refilled them. My aunt kept going on in a Teochew phrase about the value of me being increased from one cents to two cents. Well, dinner was great. Home cooked food, as always, is the best. I got so tired after dinner, I fell asleep sitting on the sofa while everyone else was playing Blackjack. When I woke up, it's 2am.

Seems like I'm gonna be having another sleepless night after all. It's gonna be a busy week ahead. Happy Lunar New Year!

Friday
It was MST paper. As I handed up my paper, I kissed the 'A' grade goodbye that I was confident of scoring. Maths is the only module which I thought I could get an 'A' for. But I guess that's all gone. Chances of pulling up my GPA would be brought to nought. And to start of the day, I had no idea how come my contact lenses got mixed up. The right lens was in my left eye and the left lens in my right. I didn't realise the difference (the difference in degree in my eye is only 25) till I got to school. It was then that I realised that my left eye seemed blurry a bit while my right seemed to be rather strenuous and it was too late to change to specs because the paper was about to start. But I endured all the way home and removed it immediately before I had my lunch.

After lunch, I made sugee! The first batch of sugee (if any of you readers actually come my house during CNY to eat) was made by me! The mixing of the flour and sugar, the mixing of the ghee with the flour to form the dough. And of course, the rolling of the dough into little balls. I had problems with the rolling at first. Couldn't get them into perfect round shapes. My granny did it with ease. I couldn't. I ended up doing 3-dimensional diamond like shapes. When I was still rolling my first dough ball, she was already on her fourth. She's the skilled-ed granny who cooks wonderful dishes. But as they say, practice makes perfect. I eventually got on par with her. And we were done. In only about an hour. The rest of the time was the baking time. Which I left her to do it while I went to revise for PAT.

Saturday
It was PAT paper. And I won't be expecting fantastic grades for this module. Everything seemed to whizz past just like that. Especially when lessons are always being handed over from PAT to PTC and back the other way round. There's just no way you can concentrate with PAT notes all over the place. I regret not spending more time on PTC. The parts were really much easier to answer. But well, there's no point crying over spilt milk. I had lunch and I rushed down to church for a wedding.

After the wedding, I went home. And I didn't enjoy myself for the rest of night. I felt that my whole evening was totally wasted. 5 hours of it just wasted due to the numerous waiting time. There's really no one I can blame but the lack of miscommuncation amongst everyone. I could have spend my whole afternoon till evening out elsewhere. I really felt damn frustrated and upset but at the time I was informed, it was too late to do anything or go anywhere. Home was the only place left to go...

Sunday
After church, I was dropped off at Bukit Batok MRT to catch a train home. When I reached Lot 1, I grabbed a quick lunch and rushed home to eat. I was supposed to meet Wee Chee at 2.30 but I pushed the time to 2.40. I left my place at 2.40 and reached the Trio bus stop ( as we named it the night before), sweating and feeling all warm and.. HE WASN'T THERE! Eventually, I saw this fella running to catch the bus. And I didn't realise it was him only till when he was quite near the bus and we both hopped on. He was dressed to the nines. Just for a simple West Winds concert. The concert was really fantabulously fantastic. No regrets on attending that.

Cabbed down to Grand Copthorne, Waterfront for dinner at Cafe Brio. And while in the cab, Greg called and asked me where I really was headed to because he didn't quite believe I was really heading down to his work place for dinner. Pretty amusing la, that blur fella. Made me laugh an exclamation he made during the second half of the concert.

I reached the hotel and found the Lims. It was quite a while where the Teos and the Lims actually sat down and had dinner. Gone were the days where we would hang out with each other over the Saturday evenings. Each teenager, the once kids that did all sorts funny stuffs, have really grown up. All 5 of us. Dinner wasn't too bad, neither was it horrid. Both me and Louisa felt so stuffed, right up to our necks. Any further pangs of laughter would result us merlion-ing all over the table.

Eventually, we left there around 10. And feeling really full from too much food, I fell asleep on the way home. The short nap made me feel even more tired. I almost wanted to sleep my night through and wake up in the wee hours to complete studying for AMB. Luckily I didn't. Otherwise, Yu Pin wouldn't have gave me valuable tips that I didn't expect would come out for exams.

Monday
All but 1 of the question we predicted came out. The only regret I had was not studying the virulence factor for Streptopcoccus pyogenes. It was 16 marks and they were all gone. But heck. It's already over. But I'd like to say, I love Dr. Zaman. Otherwise, the paper would probably have been more hell for me.

And at last! I did my new year shopping. I'm darn contented! 2 long sleeve shirts that looks so darn cool and a nice nice nice belt. And of course there's a big price to pay (pun intended) with these items. A Zara top. I wouldn't even dare walked into that shop if I were with other people. But my mom and sister, both whom I regard as my fashion consultants, were kind of insistent on me getting that top. With that little bit of persuasion, I got it. And I'm extremely satisfied. Got another top from Freshbox and it looked good too. Both, though plain and simple, was just something I was really looking for. And last but not least, I got a belt. A casual one. Now, I have 2 formal belts and a couple of casual belts to choose from. Walking in town was also a day where I bumped into many people I haven't seen for eons. Cheryl, Kenneth, Alina. Most importantly, my long lost cuzzie Charmaine Lee. She has grown (not taller than me), matured and looks hell a lot more prettier than what my last impression of her was. But she's still the same old her. Cheeky as before. When she called up to me on the opposite side of the escaltor, I found that she looked familiar but couldn't quite place a name to the face. Then my sis went into hysterics and they both started hugging each other mad in public. Nonetheless, it was a best day to be in town. And to think, I wouldn't have time for new year shopping.. However, I'm all geared up and ready to go for Chinese New Year.

But prior to that, I've got to cross the final hurdle on Wednesday. Immunology paper. And I feel sick thinking about it..

2nd Feb
Jon started off the whole thing by counting down my birthday. Irritating eh. And it came every hour or so. Anyhow, I met Edgar, Alvin, Kenneth and Yong Sen to watch Hossan Leong's Multiple Personality Disorders in the evening. It was really good and we had barrels of laughter. He sang, he danced, he made current affairs all funny. It was my first. But it won't be my last time attending such stuffs.

After the show, we head down to Bugis for dinner at Pastamania. Marcus, Andrew and Jeremy Boo joined us then. Edgar suddenly had to return back to office. Kenneth and Yong Sen followed. The remaining of us head down to Tanjong Pajar area where they brought me to a pub. First time being in such a place.. Felt like a sua-ku. Didn't quite know what to order so me, Alvin and Kenneth decided to share a jug of Ribena Vodka. I know I am no drinker, hence I chose something which has the lowest alcohol content. So we had drinks and yak yak yak.

Then they got the staff to bring out the cake they secretly brought (that's why Edgar went back to the office). The cake was really nice. Tasted a bit like ferrero rocher coz of the base. Had a bit of a problem walking to the toilet.. Felt kinda light headed but still perfectly fine. But I totally conked out while I was on the bus home. I have a low threshold for alcohol. =/

3rd Feb
A Mahjong Date with ah nias Chew and Chua at 10 Am this morning. And I woke up at 10am. Well, if it wasn't for my sister who woke me up, I would probably have slept through the whole morning. So, rush rush rush and my dad sent us there. They ordered KFC. And they got a slice of cake though I brought home to finish it.

I left their place around 2.45. Supposedly heading home, to be picked up by Melinda and Leen at 3.45. When I got home, I saw some relatives whom I seldom saw. Eventually the pick up time was at 5. So I managed to take a quick nap. Then they came and brought me out. Well, I already knew we were supposed to have a bbq. Where, I didn't know. Who was coming, I also didn't know. Surprises just got me all itchy inside.

When we reached West Coast, we had a bit of time locating our pit. Eventually, we found it but food arrived half an hour late. People started trickling in. The crowd just got better and better. Could barely recognize Winston and Dixon (they looked so burnt), Shi Ying(she has changed a lot since I last saw her) and a few others.

It was really nice being in the company of all the people whom I haven't saw for eons like Samuel and Shi Ying. Even my colleagues came! Glenda, Florence, Jasmine and Jonathan came and they brought a cake. Funny thing about cutting the cake was that I had to 'blow' the cake 3 times in order to capture a shot on the camera. Heh. Well, we tried to finish the food, clear up the mess and leave. Was quite late. And poor Ms Chua Kewei was feeling quite sick throughout.

All in all, I had tremendous fun today. Totally enjoyed myself. But it really wouldn't have been made possible without the wonderful planning done by Melinda and Leen. Thank you very much, both of you.

On top of that, I would like to those who came down or gave me your well wishes: Edgar, Alvin, Jeremy Boo, Jeremy How, Junyi, Bastian, Kenneth, Alex, Yong Sen, Marcus, Marcus, Andrew Hao, Andrew Halim, Andrew Lee, Peiyi, Cindy, Gregory, Keng Lu, Zhong Yong, Shi Ying, Samuel, Wee Chee, Johan, Li Hsien, Jasper, Chiu, Kewei, Lionel, Winston, Dixon, David Mars, Wilson, Lewis, Benedict, Johan, Marcel, Aunty Joan, Aunty Bibiana, Christine, Florence, Glenda, Jonathan, Jasmine, Fadhleen, Melinda Rasyiqa, Jon, Bing Yang, Joanna, Keith, Yu Shan, Sherry, Yu Pin, Bernice, Cindy, Si Cheng, Daryl Hor, Daryl Ooi, Amanda, Rayner, Zheng Han, Xin Rong, Karen, Alvina, Adrian, Elmer, Joel, Dennis, Serene, Aloysius, Norain, Joseph, my mom and dad(he shares same birthday as me), granny, uncles and aunts and those grand aunts that came today. Anyone I've missed?